Archive for June, 2010

Metrofail. Again.

Posted in Random Randoms on June 26, 2010 by starstripe


The trains during the World Cup have done anything but run on time. “The such and such a train from Simons Town to Cape Town has been cancelled, we apologise for the inconvenience” is a great line we hear blared over the loudspeakers in a barely distinguishable accent, almost daily. Fantastic, that just makes everything all better. Take a few weeks ago as an example. I had a doctor’s appointment after work at 6, and this is one of those doctors who you pay for if you don’t turn up. You’d think an hour would be sufficient for me to get from work to the doc, seeing as I work across the road from the station and the trip is 20 minutes. But no, thanks to Metrorail I didn’t get there on time. My train was cancelled. The next train, 15 minutes later, left late. Then the train broke down and stopped on the tracks for 10 minutes. I got there at about 6.20, having left work at 5. 

On Wednesday, the train I was on broke down and all the lights went out. Now, at 7 in the evening, this was such a lovely experience – being surrounded by a group of strangers in a dark train carriage. This was after my original train was cancelled, and the next train to leave was late coming in so we were late to leave. The estimated leaving time of the train kept moving 1 or 2 minutes forward. Now, the board with the train times and platforms had told us our train was leaving from platform 7. Then, Metrorail announced that it will be leaving from platform 3. You’d think someone could update that on the board seeing as its electrical. But wait, only one of the boards announcing the train times is actually working, the other is blank. This is happening during the World Cup people. 

The people on the trains are also pretty retarded. In the morning during rush hour, the trains get so full that you can’t get on them. But on closer inspection, you notice that there is lots of standing space further down the carriages, but people still choose to hover around the door, as if moving down the carriage is some threat to their personal safety. Common sense much? NO! Not any! When I board the train, I usually move further down the carriage so I don’t have to stand squelched next to someone who hasn’t discovered good hygiene, and also so people are able to get into the carriages. 

You should see people’s faces when I say ‘excuse me, can I get past please, there is so much space there.’ They look as if I have kicked them in the groin with a steel capped boot. The look of utter horror and shock as I push through to get to some space is unbelievable. I have seen people unable to board the trains because they are so full around the doors, but have standing room further down the carriage. It is as if people cannot put 2 and 2 together: crowded space next to un crowded space – move to un crowded space and crowded space becomes less crowded. 

Another joy of train rides is the token DJ, playing music from their phone to the whole carriage. Oh yeah, we all want to listen to Akon or other drivel like that after working a long, crappy day and getting rained on for 10 minutes before boarding the train, Thanks buddy, it’s all good now I have your cellphone music in my ears. It’s a real treat when you get not one, but two wanna be DJs on the train! What joy! And neither one wants to give up their music so we sit, listening to two shitty RnB/Hip Hop artists for 20 minutes, AT THE SAME TIME. 

Last but not least is chivalry. It seems to be pretty dead. I have seen elderly women standing on trains, while twenty-something, healthy men are sitting happily on the seats. I have seen pregnant women standing too. If I am lucky enough to get a seat and I see a pregnant woman or an elderly person – I give up my seat. It’s just good manners. This would be another time when people’s mouths drop open in shock. The other day I gave my seat to an elderly lady and after the (once again) horrified stares from people in the carriage I felt like shouting ‘well it seems I have more balls than all the men on this train so I thought I had better behave like man is supposed to, and offer her my seat.’ 

I really need to get my driver’s license, and get away from these morons. Metrorail morons and passenger morons.


Time to say goodbye

Posted in Mind Ramblings with tags , , , on June 21, 2010 by starstripe

Last week Sunday, I was dumped. I was broken up with, out of the blue, for no real reason, apart from that he was ‘just not feeling the relationship.’


So, after four days of not really being in the best frame of mind and watching three seasons of Greys Anatomy, I feel like I am ready to take on the world again.

When I go through break ups, and believe me, I go through a LOT of break ups, I follow a similar recipe in my behaviour.

1. Cut off all contact with dumper.
2. Cry a lot, and lie in my flat not doing anything for days on end, except watch TV.
3. Speak to my friends about it non-stop to salvage some kind of hope that he might change his mind.
4. Hand his things back to a friend of his to give to him, and always rub his toothbrush in soap.
5. Delete all music given by the ex.
6. Rebound, usually with previous ex to this ex.
7. Start eating again.
8. Stop crying.
9. Re-arrange everything in my flat in a type of cathartic ‘new beginnings’ ritual.
10. Get new boyfriend.

At the moment I completed step 9 yesterday. And, much as I am shocked, I am attempting to avoid step 10. You see, since October last year, I have been dumped three times. But enough is enough. I kinda think I need to be on my own.

Ai fok.

Posted in Mind Ramblings on June 16, 2010 by starstripe

Fuck. That’s all I’m saying. Fuck. What a fucking shitty fucking few days it’s fucking been. Fuck.

First I manage to rip some of the skin off my face whilst attempting to beautify myself. Then I get dumped. Then I get a lung infection again. Then I have to have a root canal tomorrow. And then I get to miss a private party with Fatboy Slim because said dumping has resulted in my invitation being ‘revoked’.

I’m a bit of a wreck right now. I haven’t really eaten since Saturday. I can’t sleep properly and I am going slightly obsessional and insane. Lets hope those mood stabilising meds mix well with my anti-psychotic meds.

I really need friends right now.


Posted in Uncategorized on June 13, 2010 by starstripe

And so it happened again. I don’t really know why this keeps happening. Everyone says ‘you need to get a healthy self esteem, it is what is meant to be” but then the same thing keeps happening over and over again that is really shitty on my self esteem. If I am supposedly supposed to love myself so much, why does no one else?

Another boyfriend met me, decided he liked me, made a play for me, got to know me, and then left me. How can I not feel like crap that I attract all these men, and once they get to know me, they leave? It says a lot for my personality. And when my low self esteem is what chases them away in the first place, it’s just a cycle that won’t stop.

Unless I become a nun.